i'll think of
you
eyes open, eyes closed
mind wandering, mind direct
i'll think of
you
and when i'm without you,
chest concave and empty hands clutched tightly,
the tears only remind me
and i'll think of
you
rocked to sleep by the trembling,
with my cheeks stained strawberry,
tonight, i'll dream of
you
the velvet knight
living in an unintended escape
it seems everyone else is asleep
what do they see?
i see the light on the ceiling from the cracks in the shutters
i hear the rain, a steady trill outside
and i feel the inside of my chest is blackness.
this velvet dream
is keeping me awake
life is not so easy now, nor will it ever be
what lies in sleep if not the dream?
i see the shimmering leaves' shadows on the brick wall
i hear the rain, around my feet
and i know you are sleeping behind those closed doors
do i turn your mind velveteen?
smooth and luxurious
and keeping you awake at night?
your eyelids are heavy.
i see the beams spread w
memories blurred
my nails painted black
throat’s a touch hoarse
hearing just out of tune
no voices in my head, what am i supposed to do
what am i supposed to feel
those days i thought so golden
so far from reach, even on tiptoe
even on tiptoe